crude...

Oh i juz had an entire 3 days worth of lesson ... which i'm not complaining abt...learnt new stuff...better absorption...now is to start applying and mugging!! which i can't wait to do...n of course i dun intend on going for the re-test and stuff that the school is creating for us...my dad reckons i'm not actually weak...it's juz that i was stressed out into a blank out state...i juz need some stressLESS moments n not someone hunting down my neck half the time...that's all i ask for...really...i dun want screaming, i dun want nagging, i dun want nada! i juz want to be left alone to do things because i'm grown up, i noe wad the heck i want and need...i noe wad works for me n wad does not. i juz...all i ask for is to be left alone to study in peace...without anyone trying to force their ideas onto me. I juz want my parents to be there for me to guide me, advice me, not try forcing their ideas onto me n keeping a closed mind thinking they are right all the time n that the whole world is against them...i hate it...cause in the end i will feel the stress of that person. I mean...hello if u're stressed go de-stress before coming home. Please don't bring that stress into the house n cause the whole world to be hyped up n agitated along with you...it's so tiring...i thought if i quit my cca, i'd haf more time n more peace to be able to study but nooo...mummy juz has to still be screaming...even if it's not directed at me it's dead annoying to juz hear someone screaming in the house...my brother can take it fine my dad can take it fine but that doesn't mean i can....oh my gosh...i juz need a break..