BORED!!!!!!!!!

2day i stoned the entire day...well...almost the entire day...i had Physics tuition in the morning...n i gotta' admit..,my teacher's a little crazy...FUN...but crazy too...well perhaps it's just his style of getting our attention...LOL. Learnt Magnetism...a J2 topic...had homework...decided 2 try it out at home...

But when i came home...i stoned in front of my labtop...watching horror movies...eesh...anything but work...i dotaed for awhile with my two friends...usin my brother's labtop cos my labtop was juz too laggy...anywayz i got totally owned...i reali need to brush up my skills...either that or get a new labtop...because my current one is infected so badly i think it's impossible to clear it...-_-"

Mmm...i drew something 2day though.......hehe...it's juz below...n composed some melodies for fun...




Aren't they cute??

OUTING WIF ME BEST FRIEND!!

LOLZ 2day i celebrated my best friend's birthday with her for the first time...=) Well...there were 5 of us...n we all met back at our secondary school...which is where we all got to know each other...Me, Meg, Chi Ping, Candice n Marilyn...of course meg, marilyn n i had 2 buy the cake first...so we walked all the way to our secondary school(TKSS)from Parkway Parade...i sooo decided to wear the WRONG pair of shoes cos i had NO idea there'd be sooo much walking...thank goodness i had on some plasters on my feet...if not my feet would have had quite a number of blisters on it...well...part of the skin on my little toe came off but it wasn't that painful so i guess i could live with it. Hmm...next time i shan't wear any shoes other than sports shoes...unless i'm goin out with my parents (cause I know they do not walk at a very fast pace...)

ANywayz we initially wanted to cut the cake on the rooftop of my meg's condo...but it looked like it was going 2 rain...so we had it in a sheltered area instead...oh well...better than nth ;) took some great photos together...one of them included us pretending to bask n enjoy ourselves in the sun...though there wasn't a single ray of sunlight in sight...-_-" after that we took off to Tampines Mall to watch a movie...THE GAME PLAN! Man was that show hilarious...we were laughing non-stop...it was quite sad towards the ending....but the ending was a happy one...thankfully or else i'd haf needed tissue...

At the end of the day...well...all good things come to an end...guess we'll haf another outing another time...for now it is goodbye...but i'd juz like 2 say that it's been really fun having the outing/celebration...=)


Backtracking a little...on thursday when I had 2 return to school for Insights and Reflections (I & R for short). Apparently I found my seat level a little too low...so i decided to adjust it...n pulled the lever...but it went up a little too high...so i tried to sit on it/apply pressure on it to lower the seat. I couldn't do it...cos i was apparently too light...in the end i asked my friend who was sitting next to me to help me...talk about embarrassing...eesh...can't believe it man...i must have broken world record...-_-"

Anywayz that's all for 2day...i'll have to sleep now...really tired...

haizzz

Currently in school...typing my post AND doin I&R at the same time...yup something like multi-tasking. Had a really bad morning....first i had a headache...then my mum started screaming at me brightly early for various things; asking me wad time i hafta go to school, putting the cordless phone in my bag, askin me wad i am wearing to school...ArgH!! Basically she just drove me crazy...the moment she left the house, i grabbed my pillow and SCREAMED!!!!!!! in fustration...n because of that stupid headache which aggravated things...i was soooo upset i tell u...oh...last night? My mum NEARLY made a spectacle of herself in public. Cos i was eating something n apparently the food i ate had problems travelling down my gullet(oesophagus). Mum gave me a i-told-you-so look n said: i told u to eat slowly right? My wonderful brother replied: no n she kinda' blew up...her voice raised. I immediately told her off n reminded her tat she was in public n not at home...n she said she din care! I was thinking...right....we argued for abit n i gave in...
I'm scared...i'm really scared...i guess i'm no longer the person i used to be...bubbly cheerful...all i want to do now is to coil up n rest...i'm exhausted...

A Lvls: Mother Tongue and PW...

Mmm...recently i juz had two of my A level papers ... Mother Tongue and PW(Project Work)...Mon was MT...n today was PW...actually to be more specific...it was the Oral Presentation section of my Project Work...

MOTHER TONGUE:
It so wasn't a good day for me...why? Let's see...i kinda' made a grave mistake by bringing my CONFIRMATION SLIP instead of my ENTRY PROOF! Talk about your dumbest mistake...never mind that...my class kinda' wasted half an hour in order to get the seating arrangements right...thanks to the screwed up seating plans n best part? the students were being made to walk around n they were being shuffled all around...it was gettin kinda' irritating to watch them being thrown from one place to another...but oh well who am i to speak? I didn't bring my entry proof...-_-" still...it wasn't totally the fault of the students that time was wasted...so i din get why that teacher from dunno-wad-school scolded the whole grp of us hu din bring the entry proofs as if it was totally our fault...ah well...

anywayz the chinese paper itself...er...let's just say i was trying to find out where in the booklet was i supposed to start on my essay...because the first page stated: 1.1 1.2 1.3...n i believe that essay questions have never been divided into 3 parts...shortly after i found out where exactly i was supposed to write my essay(which was on the 11th page) the invigilator announced which page it was...i was like...erm...a bit late hor?? but never mind better late than never...i reckon...i found the Paper 2 segment a little on the tough side...but still doable...mmm...tat's all for chinese...


PROJECT WORK:
Ah PW...which was today...this morning to be exact...thank goodness my LAST PW grp member turned up...i was worried sick that he would not have turned up. Anywayz...i thought today wasn't as bad as i expected...even though my hands were slightly trembling and believe me I was seriously nervous...i managed to keep my voice calm n steady...*shrugs* Although I thought i was the worst speaker amongst my grp...after all they all had sth funny whilst i did not...cause i really had no idea how 2 incorporate jokes into my section which was on the Development, Importance n Impact of Sanitization. As my teacher mentioned, I had to be serious so there really was no way I could have made it funny...think i screwed up Q n A though...ARGH!!! Oh well...tat's about it though...*yawn* now i need a nap...real tired...-_-"

Oral Presentation

Oral Presentation...my teacher told me that I have to speak louder...which is kind of ironic actually...since i remembered him saying that those who are unable to project their voices should attend choir practices...n here I am a true choir member being asked to speak louder. My first OP dry run was quite amusing actually...because when i was presenting one of my grp members sneezed and out of sheer habit I turned around and said "bless you". Problem? After I turned back, I momentarily forgot where i presented my part till...thank goodness i found got back on track...
For the second OP...i was audible this time round...though after watching the video...I felt that i swayed too much...my content required a lot of editing...AND last of all i realised tat i sound like a little kid...which kinda' freaked me out...because i had no idea i sounded like that...NOW i know why my friends say i sound younger than i actually am...
I realised one thing...the Oral Presentation component of Project Work can really test the limits of many people. Some of them are getting very stressed out...some on the verge of breaking down...others actually broke down. I guess Kudos to those who are able to withstand the pressure of the Oral Presentation...perhaps they're very fortunate to have supportive group members or they don't care...let's hope it's not the latter..........
Now...I'm rehearsing my newly edited script...i do hope i do not stumble in any ways...if not i'll juz scream once i'm done n have left the exam venue a.k.a. classroom....no chocolates/too much fried food/spicy food for the time being...dun wanna' lost my voice before my presentation...or else i'll just be shooting myself in the foot.

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Mm...friday...ah yes...it was Thanksgiving chapel...got a second chance to witness the Holy Communion...my first time was in Finland when i performed at a church...it was also a farewell chapel for our Principal...there was a couple of performances..some of them were the combined efforts of a couple of CCAS...however most of them only involved the president and vice-president / chairman and vice-chair...a few exceptions were the SFC(Saints for Christ) the CCA of yours truly...the Choir. We were asked to wear the maroon pullover for the choir members..n i realised tat the fibres got stuck to your uniform afterwards...man did my friends n i haf a fantastic time trying to pull the fibres off...geez...
I only managed to watch the rehearsals for the other items because we were asked to warm-up on the actual day itself...thus we had no time n missed the performances of the other items...sad isn't it? ah well...at least i managed to record some of the items onto my phone...better than nothing...
Guess tat was about it...went home after that n slept...because that morning i had 2 wake up earlier than usual...after all we were performing so we had 2 make our way there early in order to make our preperations...n oh screw...my 'backspace' key has a problem...n my 'n' key as well...fantastic...

Alas...the Report Slip!

Right...first of all i think i really have to thank my teachers for helping me...because i haf no idea how my rank points could have gone up to 34 points from a mere 30 points. As I was looking through the overall points for the first time...i was a little surprised because i had 32 points when i remembered my points being 30...n it was because my Math became an E instead of an S.
2day, as I looked at my report slip...i saw an E instead of an S which i was supposed to obtain for my Economics...so i guess that kind of explained where the extra 4 points came from...although it was just a conditional promotion for me...i guess i should be glad for being given a second chance...
Although...after reading the comments on my report slip...i was thinking...should i continue with JC? or should i opt out and try another route of studying...like...let's say...Poly? Am I not just not cut out for JC? Should I reali withdraw from JC and experience something else...? I do not know...I guess i'll give myself a chance until my first block test next year. If i still do not make the mark and am unable to catch up, I guess i will just leave.
Thankfully the holidays are here...time to make use of the holiday to study hard...catch up...and also to think about then 3 options which i haf:

1) remain in JC n continue the same course

2) remain in JC but change course(which is impossible unless i get thrown back to J1)

3) Go to Poly and take Mass Communication which I know i haf the aptitude for

Well...in the meantime i guess i'll just concentrate on my Chinese A levels(which is like nxt monday) and my Project Work(which reminds me...gotta' edit my script)
I'm juz afraid that if i go to poly...my aunt/uncle will start their lectures at me...considering all of my cousins so far have gone to Junior Colleges...and to be exact...it's EXCELLENT colleges...Raffles, Temasek, National...one's even in NUS High...the pressure is really great on me...if I quit JC halfway and enter poly...wad will they think of it? Ok it doesn't matter if they think badly of me...but i'm worried for my parents...and to make matters worst i've got one Uncle who seriously does not know how to zip his mouth...and i'm scared that he'll aggravate the situation which is already bad enough...
Haizz...BUT...all these will only happen if I enter poly...on the other hand if i stay on i have no idea if i can keep up and survive or i will just be digging a grave for myself...sighz.......

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

By: Max Ehrmann in the 1920s

Thoughts: Well i feel that this passage has a really deep meaning to it...it tells us about life...n how we should live our lives...basically telling us to be optimistic ..."Be Cheerful" and "Strive to be happy". It's no use being stressed out...brooding over matters that have already happened...we can't change the past...but we can mould our future with our own hands...it tells us how important each and everyone of us are...n that we should cherish the lives given to us. It tells us not to harbour negative feelings and thoughts...instead fill ourselves with positive emotions to overcome the darkness that may overcome us during our periods of depressions...All i have to say is this passage will help calm n bring peace+tranquility to the soul...so happy reading =)